“Tonight’s comic thinks you’re smart and you should write something.” See? Universe telling me to write. And I have been, in my paper journal, almost every day for the past week. It’s not much, but it’s a start. One of these days I will attempt to resurrect a NaNoWriMo project or two…
So the universe has been full of things telling me to write lately, and it makes me want to cry, or straight just tear up a little because that’s how I roll, gah. This is another one of those messages, and this blog is another attempt to write, even if I don’t know what or what about or anything. Blech.
“Boo hoo! I’m perfectly comfortable, yet utterly unsatisfied.” Do I really gotta work on readjusting my expectations to make reality seem better, or am I already too good at giving myself that kind of permission to be complacent? ARRRRRRRGH. No fair giving me deep thoughts first thing in the morning, internet comics!
Two new pages of Chester 5000: Isabelle and George
Haha, these are the most depressing pages, I KNOW.
The first page is indeed the saddest thing I have seen in a long time (I almost wrote “read in a long time” but the only word is “TEA” and it is heartbreaking) but the second ends, to me, on a hopeful note, so I am super-glad to have read them back-to-back or I would be scouring Tumblr for a unicorn chaser right about now.
I had no idea that you could like your parents, or that they could love you enough to let you be yourself.
Jeanette Winterson, Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal?
This book, it has super-quotable lines like this on just about every freaking page. That idea — that it takes a lot of love to let people be themselves — is kind of breaking my heart.
In other news, I want to be writing more, but I don’t know what and it makes me crazy. Blech.
My point is not that you should have a baby, Undecided. It’s that possibly you expect to have a feeling about wanting to have a baby that will never come and so the clear desire for a baby isn’t an accurate gauge for you when you’re trying to decide whether or not you should have one. I know that sounds crazy, but it’s true.
So what then, is an accurate gauge?
You say that you and your partner don’t want to make the choice to become parents simply because you’re afraid you “will regret not having one later,” but I encourage you to reexamine that. Thinking deeply about your choices and actions from the stance of your future self can serve as both a motivational and a corrective force. It can help you stay true to who you really are as well as inspire you to leverage your desires against your fears.
Not regretting it later is the reason I’ve done at least three quarters of the best things in my life.
—Cheryl Strayed, “The Ghost Ship That Didn’t Carry Us.”
Another Dear Sugar column, yup, and I’m still thinking about this stuff.
I’m not even good at wanting things, though.